Well, this thing is your life. When one chooses to embrace Spirituality, one begins to understand All That Is. The truth of life is Love and it comes from within. Begin by learning to observe instead of getting caught up into the mundane reality. Meditation would help to keep yourself calm. Research whatever it is that you seek to know and understand! Astrology and Numerology are extremely wonderful! If there is anything else you need help with,just ask!
Love and Light!